What about ME?

Today I feel like I have lost myself in the pursuit of graded perfection. I feel like making the "suggested edits" adds clutter and chaos to what I perceive as the COVA method of learning. I made most of the suggested edits and every time I go to adjust the home page I feel stifled. Confusion consumes me. I take deep breaths and try realign my thoughts yet I feel constricted. Like the walls are closing in on me as I sit in the middle of the forest. I know learning it limitless and I am my own problem as well as my own solution. If I get out if my own head I am sure I can make it happen. I cannot help the desires of the 9 year girl in me who wants to scream 'WHAT ABOUT ME? from the top of her lungs and throw a fit in the middle of the den until comfort comes in the form of Kroger gummy worms and slightly chilled cranberry juice.

This was my discussion board thought:

This weeks resources made me think a lot about the way I want my ePortfolio to look. I like my way yet the feedback I was suggested makes me feel like I am conforming to a standard versus the true COVA approach I thought I could take. I don't want my blog on the landing page but i see that is the norm. Most people have their information on a certain page that seems to be never ending. I felt a bit anal because it did not fit into my ideas but I want to make the best grade possible. I found myself stressing out about what I would do to. I wanted to scream like a little kid "WHAT ABOUT ME?!" Then I settled into the authentic nature of the course and felt more at ease with my thought process and how to take the suggestions and make them work for me.

Maybe it's just me.